IF I SHOULD DIE BEFORE I WAKE, I PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO TAKE...

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Hurt - Nine Inch NailsI.. hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel, I… Focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real.. the needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting.. try to kill it all away but I remember everything…
What have I become? My sweetest friend.. everyone I know
goes away In the end..

The Line Begins To Blur - Nine Inch NailsThe more I stay in here..
The more it's not so clear,
The more I stay in here..
The more I disappear,
As far as I have gone..
I knew what side I'm on,
But now I'm not so sure…
The line begins to blur.

CHARLES MANSON AND THE CIA-
Charles Manson was and is currently known as the most notorious cult leader who caused murderous havoc during the then peace and love era in the 60s. Charles Manson was born in a broken household, he’d spend most of his childhood in group homes and reform homes aswell as spending many of his teen years in & out of prison. That was where he worked on his music skills and his philosophical views. After being released in 1967, Manson decided to form a “family” and started recruiting members, mainly teenaged runaways and those who felt didn’t belong in society. Manson successfully convinced his followers to worship him, he influenced them with his nazi ideologies and convinced them of a race war. Manson and his followers strongly believed The Beatles “White album” was made for them and would be quoting ”Helter Skelter” at the Tate residence during the infamous murders that took place there, aswell as singing them during gatherings, Manson and his followers felt that the album was predicting a future race war.Now here’s what you’re probably thinking, how did a petty criminal like Manson brainwash his victims so perfectly into committing such horrid crimes? LSD mind control experiments. That’s what it is. Manson used LSD to control his “family” and it worked, it was even mentioned that some of the members had no prior violent tendencies. No one else has been able to successfully use LSD to influence a persons behaviors or actions, only Manson. Scientists haven’t even been able to do that, there’s obviously something far more deeper to this than you think. Charles Manson was a MK ultra victim experimented on by the CIA to test the use of LSD on the human brain to get others to do exactly as said, a human experiment at that. Charles Manson had been experimented on all his life and that’s exactly why he was in and out of jails, stealing, and eventually getting his “family” to kill Sharon Tate, and a few others at the Labianca household in LA during the summer of 69, a quadruple murder that shocked California and the world.This was all caused by the CIA, only the government will prey on vulnerable individuals to do horrible crimes and much more. Think of the false flags in America and lately, the Charlie Kirk shooter? He wasn’t the one who shot him, it was Mossad and Mossad blamed it on the supposed “shooter”. Recent articles have even mentioned that the bullet doesn’t match the gun! They’re all either LSD human experiments OR something far more worse.

Poetry has always meant a lot to me, it’s one of the most beautiful & profound ways of self expression. I’ve written countless of poems throughout my life and I’ve never shared them with anyone, ever. My poems are sacred to me, I’ve written them through tears, anger, and desperation. All I’ve ever wanted was to be heard.
That being said, happy reading :-)

Mad Girl’s Love Song - Sylvia Plath"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

Oct 5, 2024a familiar emptiness resides inside
of my cavity
deep inside the depths of my chest
a wallowing sensation within
a knife glades across my skin
gliding across, sinking in
reaching through the layers
layers upon layers
of a black hole
spreading its way across
like a plague
no cure, no way
to rid this ailment
from the disease
inside me
no longer a being
but an entity
of its own
takes control over
like a rapid infection

SoulA voided soul,
emptier than a vast black hole
walking around aimlessly
no place to go
dragging along the streets
carrying the heaviest of rocks
on their back
weighing them further and
further,
a carcass is all that remains
the emptiness fills the air,
hollow and stiff
it evaporates

August 5, 2025heart as hollow as an
empty bottle
soul nowhere to be found
gone as the wind
small whispers flow in and out
of my ears
like crashing waves
on a cold beach day
drowning
I am no longer on the shore
i am deep
in
the ocean
sucked in with the madness
the coldness
it’s swallowing me, whole
my heart clings on
to the last remnants of life,
left within this dying vessel
of empty hope

Silent (August 2025)
It is the loud chatters
that echo around me
through my mind,
that is painful as glass
against skin. Ive always
been used to the silent
static inside me
talking seems unatural
a species mirroring
human behavior,
is not so human
it is robotic & forced
no one speaks of the real issues
not of the political violence or the genocide
all there is to hear is the loud voices
of people who dont care about the world,
or whats going on around them
frankly to me, conversation is useless
is that all there is to care about? mundane matters?
there is a shift in the world that has gone
unoticed by those who are asleep
the masses, asleep, and blinded
i am awake
and i am not blind
i observe and i watch
i awaken everyday
i desire to be left alone

FREE YOUR MIND, AWAKEN YOUR SOUL.. ESCAPE THE MATRIX!
I hope to reawaken your mind with these teachings and expand your knowledge on the real state of the world & most importantly reach a higher state of awareness. It is time to escape the matrix and open up your true self and thought..

Israel - Israel was never a nation or a land until after WWII, Israel took over the Palestinian land so that they could form their only nation - the nation of the Jews. The people behind the US’s attacks, the mass genocide, the brooklyn tunnels, trumps assassination attempt, JFK, etc IS ISRAEL. 9/11 one of the most infamous terrorist attacks in the United States was all planned by Israel to start wars and to destroy the Middle East as much as possible! That’s exactly what they did! George Bush even blamed it all on OSAMA BIN LADEN WHO did not plan 9/11! Aswell as blamed it on Yemen, Afghanistan and Iraq. Israel is also stealing our tax dollars, our votes and even our own president is kissing Netanyahus ass. Israel is behind a lot of terrorist attacks and threats, Israel has blood on their hands and they will pay for it.

CHARLIE KIRK - As you may know, Charlie Kirk was a Republican American that was murdered on September 10, 2025. Kirk would voice out his conservative opinions and views to university students around the United States. He would debate liberals, LGBTQ, poc, etc. While many of those who disagreed with his views, Kirk was still seen as someone respectful and open minded to those that debated with him. Charlie was known to be pro-israel but in recent times, he was starting to awaken and criticize Israel for the Palestinian genocide and for controlling the UNITED STATES. Many of you whom are awakened know that Israel has been controlling our country for as long as we can remember, OUR TAX MONEY goes to fund AN ACTIVE GENOCIDE! This is what Kirk spoke about and questioned Ben Shapiro. The media wants you to think that a young man killed Kirk but they just want the masses to be oblivious to the real problem - ISRAEL. ISRAEL KILLED CHARLIE KIRK! That young man whose parents turned him in? He’s a PSYOP, a fake bait to cover up the fact that Netanyahu and Mossad set Charlie up. They SILENCED him for questioning Israel, freedom of speech is starting to die out in this country and there aren’t enough conservative voices being heard. No one deserves to die over their political views.

PALANTIR-

Palantir is a Zionist owned Ai company that is known for its AI to place surveillance on Palestinians and this surveillance exposes these already in-danger individuals to be targeted for mass execution. They profit off of the deaths of millions. BE CAREFUL ON WHICH AI TO USE, NOT ALL AI IS YOUR FRIEND!

THE EPSTEIN WAR - Jeffrey Epstein is an elite child trafficker, rapist, and pedophile who would traffic young girls to his island in Little St. James for decades before getting “caught” in July 2019 and getting arrested in NY. He later died on August 2019 by a supposed “suicide” during his detention. We all know that Epstein did not commit suicide, he was surely sent to Israel and had a clone replacing him at the “time of his death.” How is it possible that the U.S. government and very powerful officials knew of his disgusting activities and yet did nothing? Blackmail. That’s what it is. Epstein was most likely sent by Mossad to the US to collect dirt on powerful leaders/people and then use it against them to become richer. Of course, that doesn’t change the fact that Epstein is a known child predator. Donald Trump was also seen in photos with Epstein and had definitely been on his island, why does the government protect rich pedophiles? Right! Because of Israel and the fear of being blackmailed. It’s absolutely sickening how recently a Florida woman got 15 years in prison for a Benjamin Netanyahu joke that she made in a group chat! Yet none of the people mentioned in the Epstein files has been arrested. The Epstein war is the war against Iran, a war being used as a distraction to distract the masses from the Epstein files. Israel threatened to expose president Donald Trump of his part in the files if he didn't attack Iran. As expected from bibi! The US government has been a slave to Israel for longer than a decade, Iran as of right now is the only country who is attacking Israel and defending itself. I'd say that Iran is not the enemy but that Israel is, WE ARE! Iran has every right to defend itself. We bombed a childrens school in Iran, killed more than 100, & for what reason? To show them that our leaders kill children and aren't afraid to do so? We truly are on the wrong side.

Resources:

The International Jew - Henry Ford

From Epstein files to Iran war

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